Clouded by slumber and the overwhelming feeling of infatuation, I feel your desire as I walk up behind you--you anticipate me. With my hands on your biceps, I lean closer and whisper in your ear (the contents of which are locked in my vaulted subconscious). You smile and lean toward me, without turning to face me. You tell me that you love my quirky ways. I lunge forward playfully and nibble your neck. The natural smell of your skin is an aphrodisiac. I wish I knew who you were. I wish I knew your name. Will you visit me again and reveal yourself? Until we meet again...
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I didn't think I cared.
I didn't think it bothered me to be alone.
I guess it's not the "being alone" part that actually bothers me, but I do long to have someone interested in me.
I want someone to get to know me.
I want someone to want to discover me.
I want flirtatious affection.
I want sensuality.
I want to be someone's distraction.
Ah, to be the muse...
Patiently, I sit, awaiting Fate's hands. For now, I guess my dreams will have so suffice as a way for me to satisfy these feelings. I look forward to our next meeting.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Plans
I'm no longer thinking in terms of these fickle dreams that float around in my mind. My plans are headstrong, pragmatic, feasible. The list of plans in no particular order:
1. Quit smoking and start exercizing, to lose this excessive weight off my shoulders, which will undoubtedly be the antidote for this invisibility cloak and make someone notice me without internet persuasion.
2. Find a local apartment. Don't get me wrong, the "fickle" dreams I spoke of earlier still exist and are manifesting in my left ventrical. I still want to experience life outside of this town, one way or another, I just need to be smart about it. Continuing my career path is one way to help me better prepare myself.
3. Stop waiting on the impatient, uninterested, indecisive clientel that insist on sitting in my section on a daily basis. I have begun the search for a "real" job, which will give me insight into the world and possibly...hopefully...bring new pathways filled with opportunity.
Although these plans may sound ambitious, I am confident that I will successfully complete all of them. Ideally, numbers two and three will be complete by, no later than, September...let the dreams commence.
1. Quit smoking and start exercizing, to lose this excessive weight off my shoulders, which will undoubtedly be the antidote for this invisibility cloak and make someone notice me without internet persuasion.
2. Find a local apartment. Don't get me wrong, the "fickle" dreams I spoke of earlier still exist and are manifesting in my left ventrical. I still want to experience life outside of this town, one way or another, I just need to be smart about it. Continuing my career path is one way to help me better prepare myself.
3. Stop waiting on the impatient, uninterested, indecisive clientel that insist on sitting in my section on a daily basis. I have begun the search for a "real" job, which will give me insight into the world and possibly...hopefully...bring new pathways filled with opportunity.
Although these plans may sound ambitious, I am confident that I will successfully complete all of them. Ideally, numbers two and three will be complete by, no later than, September...let the dreams commence.
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