A Loss for Words

I don't even know what to say
To this person we all
Once knew
You're so different now
Unpredictable
and
Changed
Defensive
Unapproachable.

I wonder why you are silent
About your secret
To the ones who love you most
To the ones you'll disappoint the most
Perhaps we're unapproachable in your mind.

I'd rather be
Approached
than
Ignored

Yes I'm disappointed
But my feelings about your choices
Do not change the way
You choose
To live life.
My feelings do not overshadow the love I feel
For the sister I once knew so well

Somewhere you got lost, girl
Searching, through radical behavior
and misconstrued ideas,
for Unconditional love.

You have found the secret;
But another lies beneath
Your chosen path,
Off the ones beaten,
Which will challenge you with
Sacrifice
Loneliness
and
Fear
Long before your time

It pains me
That you could not
Take the pride
You preach
And tell your
Sister
of your quest
and your treasure.

It is not a trophy.
It is life.