Onward and Upward

I knew I wasn't supposed to get my hopes up, but I guess, secretly, I did. This interview didn't sweep me off my feet like I had hoped. Disappointed isn't even the word to describe what I'm feeling. I was definitely becoming more emotionally attached to the thought of leaving Delaware and moving across the world. It became more of an emotional challenge the more I thought about it. Now I'm wondering if I should do something more practical. Maybe I should stay in the states. Maybe I shouldn't think so big...why shouldn't I think so big. I cannot become discouraged.
I have to say though, I think I'm more angry with myself for all the talking I did. I feel like I talked it up to so many people that I got their hopes up too...I'm really over thinking now...but that has crossed my mind.
Onward and upward, as they say.

Rest Easy

Rest easy, now that I’m gone and the threat of my words disintegrates with your low self-esteem. Rest easy, now that you have publicized the words that haunt your ego. Rest easy knowing that I have kept my end of the bargain, and you have exploited your own sensitive femininity that lies beneath your Chair Force exterior. Rest easy watching your children grow into confident young people despite your efforts to shelter them and make them as paranoid as you are. Rest easy as you take your seat on the throne of this company, with your minions kissing your feet to finish a project that some intern will have to fix and improve later. Rest easy in your world of false realities and manipulations. Rest easy while your weaknesses add strength to the words I write.

Resignation

I’d like to start out by saying that I have thoroughly enjoyed my time here. I’m especially fond of the insane mood swings, walking on eggshells, and fights heard round the office. I’m thankful for the arbitrary and utterly ridiculous attacks on my work ethics despite my record-breaking productivity and my consistent effort. Thank you for having faith in me and allowing me to continue my employment despite my cheerfully loud ways. I know you haven’t always been fond of the friends I have chosen in your company, but I’m so grateful that you have brought your feelings to my attention by singling me out and warning me of my friends’ loyalty and ability to harm my position here. I’ve learned so much from the ethics you have shown, that I feel confident to move on, knowing how NOT to run a business based on these inappropriate techniques. The pounds of negative karma you have acquired, through your treatment of me alone, are bound to award you with bankruptcy and foreclosure, I can’t imagine what the rest will bring you. Well, now that I’m gone, maybe you can once again enjoy the business you’ve created on paranoia, distrust, and outright disrespect for all those you chose to join you in your financial endeavor. Enjoy your winnings. Sit high on your pedestal of self-righteousness and all-mighty power. Your tears will flood the Earth when it’s lost.