Onward and Upward

I knew I wasn't supposed to get my hopes up, but I guess, secretly, I did. This interview didn't sweep me off my feet like I had hoped. Disappointed isn't even the word to describe what I'm feeling. I was definitely becoming more emotionally attached to the thought of leaving Delaware and moving across the world. It became more of an emotional challenge the more I thought about it. Now I'm wondering if I should do something more practical. Maybe I should stay in the states. Maybe I shouldn't think so big...why shouldn't I think so big. I cannot become discouraged.
I have to say though, I think I'm more angry with myself for all the talking I did. I feel like I talked it up to so many people that I got their hopes up too...I'm really over thinking now...but that has crossed my mind.
Onward and upward, as they say.