Confusion through Tears

My feelings had
Reached
A plateau of grief
Long before your death.

My anger refused
To show the love
That once existed in my heart

Your death was not
Full of sorrow
For I had already lost
Someone so special
Long ago.

Your death,
Did bring memories
Locked away
Behind the
Drunken Escapades

Memories of
Homemade Halloween costumes
Handmade with love
Created with me in mind.

Memories of laughter
When times were good.
I am so lucky to have experienced that love
Before it was lost.

I miss the man you used to be
And I have for years
But pain runs thick, and
Reeks of Gin.

Although years have passed
Your death has shown
That to forget the memories
Is to forget the love.

I’ll never forget the love.